But For a Moment

Within my heart and a maze of confusion and concern, today I almost lost you but for a moment. Not long, but for just a brief flash of time. Just long enough to feel a cold hollow pain within my heart and soul.
Joy came to a standstill, dreams were shattered and destroyed as hope disappeared from my mind and heart, leaving me lost in a sea of emptiness.
You were taken from me but for a moment and all that I live for and believe in was taken with you.

I stared into a void of emptiness and total remorse, without you even but for a moment, my very existence would be over, my life would be meaningless, as I would have not hope nor dreams nor desires and I would be left without my pure love of you.
This price would be more than I am capable of paying.

I reached into a place deeper inside my soul than I ever have before and I summoned up all my strength and courage and I asked my God for his mercy. I asked my lord for you to come back, and for you never to leave my mind but even for an instant. For you must see my love, that I have suffocated with this desire to love you. My soul holds you so deeply that you are now within me for eternity.

I now close my eyes but for a moment and you are once again with me instantly, no longer do I fear life, for you are now back, yes back from my release of you...but for a moment, for God has heard my pleading prayer.

You cannot ever be taken away from me again, I will not allow it, as I have bartered my soul for you. I have offered all that I could ever be, achieve, or have for you. I gladly have paid a price that is a king’s ransom for you to be within me for eternity and I would do so a hundred fold if within my power to do. I have offered my very life for you to be kept within my heart, mind and soul forever.

I love you, my dear, I love you for more than a moment, God has spoken within my soul and faith has been granted to me from heaven above as all heaven’s angels have marveled at my devotion of you. This sincerity, love and emotion are my Lord’s gift.

I now have opened my eyes and feel you once again in my special place. You are once again safe within my heart and soul not but for a moment, but for eternity. I vow I will never leave you again for even an instant my love. I will forever love you till my very existence is taken from me and my breath has ceased and my heart has stopped beating. And at that last instant of my life, you my love, yes you will be within my heart and soul, my last conscious though, gently guiding me towards the pure peacefulness of Heaven and eternity, where there I will be waiting for you as promised.

-Daniel F. Heuer